when things aren't meant to be yours
it just isn't.

its kinda joy when u get to live peaceful life like now
unlike those schooldays life.
volleyball training and volleyball training-that's all
my ambition is 'still' to be an INTERIOR DESIGNER in my future.
only consultation fees cost up to(lowest) 4-5k
so its kinda big money, if if if u r recognised.
plus all those renovation commands that u are gonna make,
it goes up to 30k per case.
so who says no future ((:

this is a checklist for people who are getting my presents for me ((:

shortage of:

pumps(size6-7)
n flaps like(birkenstock), but i dun nid the brandbrand one, BATA will do?
i want it BLINGBLING kind, with fake crystal, smile ((:

day-out bags, no more backpacks n such

tops, lots of them pls(sizeL-XL)
apologise for the broad shoulder.
dun get jeans n etc, i have 2jeans n 2jacket from ESPRIT alr(i'm trying to show), like others
ger u should show urs too, like all those blingbling stall ((:hope u understand
no volleyBALL, hahas, i have one alr

ipod nano((: $149 only

now thinking back writing this post, nothing rushes up to my mind(what i want)
so this seems tht i'm rather contended with wad i have now ((: and i appreciate myself

intelligence n time is what i would ask for more seriously

no girls doesnt like plush toys n flowers, but i prefer useful items.
but if none of friends getting me presents, i shall work hard at work n buy it on my own.
i noe u guys love me, so tht solution wunt come to help, hahas!!!

this post is specially for kaili, weibei n friends ((:

just had a gathering with all my beloved friends
people like
kaili, weibei, Chuikiang, kenrick, Chayann, ranald, hengyi, andy, gerald, wilson n etc
actually wanted to only make a trip to great world for a lunch, but later on i ended up in the gym with 4 our peeps.
waited for them n went for dinner, PRATA!!
headed to safra for pool, but it was packed.
so went to Chayann's house instead.
played card games and such till now, smile.
i'm like sooooo happieee today (((:
do not have any idea when are we gonna met up again, i guess i will still miss u all.


i realisei have lots friends with names involving with 'C':
Cheeweibei
Chiapoh
Chayann
Chuikiang
Chuawenjing
Chuapoeysianggavin
Cliftonwongweixiong
Chiamsoktheng
Chiangyixindelvina
Changqiaoying
Chewkrismichelle
Cheryoung
Cheepeiying
CalvinCheeweixiong
all i think is this now.
quite a sum right?
what's the reason??? so much C's
cash creditcard condo car company certificates(common C's) hahas

i just simply hates boot-lickers
joy is the only word i would wish to say after being back from SLE
no more late nights ((:
sorry wouldn't help, so just shhhh.

comparing OBS and SLE,
OBS ought to be better, and its kinda true
as OBS is a adventure and leadership camp

games that we had during the camp was rather interesting
i felt that the blindfold rock climbing station was the only station everyone was willing to do it
i'm afraid of heights, but thru this game i had better feeling about rock climbing
a great experience w/o eyes!
and thru the mrchua's station we are able to see how each of our teammates perceive life
amusing. xperience is definitely ALWAYS nided
a leader should seriously do things that others dun do and it might not be a supported thing with all others agreeing to it, that's why they stands out
the food was like nice.

having to draft out the sandcastle design be it bird's eyeview or 3Dform.
had been doing it since thursday
not trying to grumble here but just want to to voice out for my hard work!
so finally came out with the design n pass it to relie n patrick
did they even hear me attentively or they are just sweeping my words off into the air?
wth.
at least collate together like wad u guys had said earlier on.
but did u both did that? isn't a real leader suppose to open him/herself to opinions from others?
u both just pushed me away with words like: i will settle it later.
I! later, when did that ever came?
we aren't that great like wad the instructor from castle can fly think
i dun mind not standing up in between u both, i'm i dun have tht kind of stamina to 'fight' with u guys.
so just dun allow me to take up the job to draft at first, relie, just say tht rahmaan can do it i won't poke my nose in even.
rahmaan obviously did a good job, so next time tell me. so i wun have to see my effort going directly down to the drain! it saddening my myself, not u of course, u guys did nothing wad. other than directing. which i dun deny tht someone indeed nid to do tht job.
so please do not say i accuse u guys.
i have nothing to lose in M.I, i have more great friends than u guys, for sure.
i dun intend to become a student leader like u guys, so there wunt be a nid for me to gain popularity n recognition. so i'm alright. is u guys.
not tht i dun have the courage to speak up in the campside with u all, i jut dun wan to quarrel and people will start tearing away.
hope u guys will have a change in this area next time round when u all doing something else.
i forsee tht M.I future is dark, so mugg up guys in leading!! or else M.I gets no where

i feel compassion for those people who belong in grpX
hope u guys really had excellent time this time round with 2'boasters' ard
tchers just view things differently from students, they always see all good things like future captain-to-be(her), i dun noe y.
VBgirls are always trouble-seekers in their eyes, but did they ever realise tht netball girls too??
we always seems bitchy n making others crying(A), thts the best kinda things we do.
i dn think the pe dept will change their perspective of how they think abt us VB girls.
so irritating.

i'm not tht suitable in student leader position i think, other than being recognise during the SCinternship, as i was enthu n i believe in commitment.
i admit tht grades isnt good, so i'm giving up on furthering my leadership potential.
i shall see wad else i can help M.I, but i believe i'm gonna be a follower.
not becuz i'm not confidence enough, but i think studies are more important, n commitment.
i dun like being assign to commit something n not being able to complete it. like lots others?

i'm of course not perfect but i shaping my personality which i think will rise above the rest like fake-fames n all such. so i'm better person than 3days ago.
for all the above comments is my personal thoughts so pls dun be too overwhelm by it.
dun ever come n quarrel or fight with me, although i'm one of the main spiker in my VBteam, but i dun ever try to harm anyone with a VB ((:
i wun wanna dirty it. just speak behind my back, i can take it.
thts the only solution i have for u guys, say all u want.
broad shoulders, big size, fierce, show off, act, etc, all u can think
but just not others like tone-legs n rather pretty, i'm afraid tht i cant take it.
i always think tht i'm preferably pretty ((:

i have got something to say before going to the SLEcamp.

'boaster'ANDanother'boaster'=2'boaster'
it doesnt works tht way tht negativeANDnegative=positive
if ur maths isnt tht good(like MINE)please dun try to understand this formla.
i got 79%, its kinda time to show off.
i'm not trying to be so suck up. but i really dun like things tht way.
although having leadership isnt about grades,
but its also not about showing off, EVERY single thing u have.

please stop ur dangerous act, u r just making the whole world hate u! ((: